We lie the most to ourselves.
I was free in a prison of my own making.
Why am I here? What in the world am I doing? I feel scattered. At times, lost. It's not going to measure up. This was the noise in my head as I am often torn on writing with purpose and on various topics for my blogs among other ventures I'm working on. This work takes dedication, vision and courage. You know for the past couple of months, this is what I wanted. I wanted to embrace my gift of using words to heal and teach...even when my opinion wouldn't be the most popular. The more I wrote and the more passionate I became, the more I questioned my gifts and capabilities. I even felt as an open book, which brought discomfort. Many times while encouraging others, I was encouraging myself. But, I heard in my spirit . . . knowing it was the voice of God, "keep going," with an assurance that it will all come together.
In that very moment a freedom so true erupted from my heart and I've done just that, "kept going." Sometimes we allow the lies in our head of inadequacy to discourage us when we are on the road toward our destiny and purpose. In that place, I wanted to believe I was free. I wanted to believe I could just 'shake it off.' But, I allowed my own self doubt to get in the way and become a limitation along with the expectations of others and what felt as hopes of failure from naysayers. It takes courage to do those things that we are most passionate about. It takes being willing to stand alone. It takes honesty with ourselves and commitment to our vision. It takes us showing up and doing the work. We cannot allow anything on the outside to come on the inside and deter us from what we already know and are assured, even when we don't see clearly. When we're challenged and in battles of uncertainty our vision may become foggy. However, it takes courage and a clear vision to have faith in where we desire to go in life. We must free ourselves from the prisons we've created and "keep going."
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.